I thought it would be easier. I thought I would be all super early a.m. gym goer and I could eat things in moderation and be okay. Apparently I thought my entire personality would change. It’s not that I can’t change; it’s just important, especially in the beginning, to not go against the grain. I [...]
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I have terrible self-esteem. I know that I’m a pretty good wife and friend; I’m a decent cook and an okay writer. I’m good at being funny, at listening, and making you feel better. When you call me in the middle of the night because your marriage is ending, I will cry with you and [...]
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Last Wednesday we threw out everything in our house that wasn’t paleo friendly. On Friday I came down with a cough, and on Saturday I was laid up in bed for the entire day, only emerging to go to the bathroom and eat. Usually when I’m sick I crave super processed stuff: pop tarts, mac [...]
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Women, I haven’t been very nice to you. I’ve judged you from afar and to your face. I’ve talked behind your back, kicked you when you were down instead of helping you back up, and thrown salt in your wounds. Time and time again I have been a coward; I didn’t stand up for what [...]
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I miss my Whole30 for a few reasons: weight loss, stronger nails, lack of heartburn, eating real food. I also miss writing about it. I liked that I had something to say almost every day for an entire month. It was a nice accountability system; it was a way to work through my food issues; [...]
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“I know the kind of person I want to be; it’s the making it happen that’s messy and complicated.” I feel like I’m making progress. I can feel changes, not just physical, but emotional and mental as well. Sometimes I take eight giant steps backwards and get frustrated at myself. My habits. Life In General. [...]
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The end of our Whole30 is near and I’ve done a pretty horrible job at following the stringent guidelines. Chocolate is delicious. However. The weight loss has been remarkable. February 1: 182 pounds February 29: 174 pounds I’ve lost twice as much weight as I had when I was counting calories and I haven’t counted [...]
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The Whole30 is rigid and inflexible. I love it. Left to my own devises I have very little self control. I mean, I have some. I lost twenty pounds via counting calories. That’s all about control. But I’m discovering more and more that I need clear-cut boundaries in order to succeed. I am very task-oriented [...]
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Yesterday, through a series of link-clinking, I found a blog called Radical Hateloss. I clicked around some more and found a post called “The Problem With Skinny & Fat.” I read the following exerpt and I felt something inside my chest click. Metaphorically. I understood. The problem with skinny and fat is the belief that [...]
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